Chapter 11

 

As I stepped into the building where I had spent countless hours dancing and also teaching beginners the art of it, I felt myself begin to shake. The first person I saw was Courtney.  She came out of one of the classrooms, and I decided to pull away.

         “Goodness I am so nervous,” I said to myself.

It did not take long. Courtney immediately gazed at me right away. “Oh my goodness, Mia, is that you?” I attempted a weak smile. “Yes, Courtney, it’s me.”

She looked  at me, and then tears began to fill her face. I immediately walked towards her  and gave her a big hug.  What am I supposed to say to her now?

          Come on, Mia. Say something!

Before I could  speak, Keyla interrupted  us. “Mia, is that really you?” I looked back at her. “Yes, it’s me.” Right now I am worried about Courtney. She seemed to be breaking down in front of us. She began shaking once I held her as she cried. Aside from crying she is also finding it hard to talk among her tears.

           “Mia, I am sorry.”

“No, Court. I am sorry. I came to apologize to both of you.” Once the words are out of my mouth, Keyla and Courtney embraced me. Then I started crying.

   “I can’t even imagine how you are feeling, ” said Keyla.

“Yes it has been hard but still I should have  let you guys in.”

Courtney looked down at her feet. “Well, since his passing, I knew you needed time.”

I smiled at her. “Thanks.”

“I am just glad you are here now,” she said.

“Yes, me too,” Keyla chimed in.

I turned to her. “Courtney, I was going to ask you—how is Matt?”

She smiled sadly. “He is taking it day by day.”

I felt like such a horrible friend. Not once did I ever talk with her about how Matt is doing. It wasn’t intentional. It’s just hard to talk to Matt now that Leo’s gone. But I never stopped to think about what it’s done to him and Courtney. She’s Matt’s girlfriend and one of my best friends.

  “Courtney, I am sorry for not being there.”

She shook her head. “Mia, I understand.”

“Thank you but I really wished I had been there for both you and Matt.”

Now we are both emotional messes. Keyla came up behind us and placed a hand on each of our shoulders.

“Okay now, Mia and Courtney, why don’t we channel all of this into a dance?

“Right now.”

“Yes Mia, I think that is what we needed,” pleaded Courtney.

As we cried Keyla handed both Courtney and I some tissues. It had been a long time since I danced. I knew it had only been 6 f months, but it felt like a lifetime.   Still, I needed  to feel like a part of me was still here on earth. Dance always made sense before. It was just what I need to bring me back to life.

Besides, here I was my whole life stretched out in front of me, and I needed to get some normalcy back into it. I just did not  want to remain in this depressive phase that was not only harming all those I loved but also myself. After a few minutes of thinking it over, I nodded.  “Let’s do this.”

    I will embrace this day. I know that is what Leo would want me to do.

 

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