I was not really sure what to do now. It’s been a couple of days since I received the letter from The New York Dance Academy of Performing Arts, and I have no clue…or even how I am supposed to feel. It wouldn’t be so hard if Leo were still here to share it with me. But now that he is gone, I am not sure if I want to go to New York. I know we talked about it many times. He was going to be a doctor and had already applied at The U of M here in Ann Arbor. Then eventually he would come to New York to be with me. We talked about planning a life together.
It would have been so perfect. I knew with him by my side the decision to go to New York would not be so hard. I just feel lost without him. I know I have been trying to create some type of normalcy in my life, I am not sure going to a big city is going to help me now.
I was at a crossroads. The uncertainty of not knowing what decision I would make. The news from this letter was bittersweet. Now I also had to think about the support group. Oh so much is on my mind.
I knew Mom always relied on prayers. Yes, that’s it. I will pray about it. Besides I need to be close to God once again.
Oh Lord please help me to come to an answer.